Dawn Goes LA LA – Part 4

After a few weeks of working and arriving home to an empty flat at a time of day when I couldn’t call England because it was sleeping, I started to wish that I had never left London. Had I sacrificed my happiness to follow a dream that didn’t seem to exist? Had I walked away from the life I had always wanted in London to a life of solitude and feelings of social inadequacy? Where were the pool parties? Where were the swanky bars? Where were the studio executives who were supposed to be taking me out for fabulous dinners? I was scared, lonely and embarrassed to admit that I wasn’t enjoying LA. It was as if that plane I had flown in on had just come crashing down to earth and plonked me in a soulless and vacuous world, where no one spoke to me, and no one wanted to speak to me. My delusions about what life would be like on arrival were killed flat, I missed my life and wanted to go home.

Dawn Goes LA LA – Part Three

As the Virgin Atlantic flight VS003 took off and I waved goodbye to the Heathrow runway I knew that whatever lay ahead of me, life had changed forever. I had made it, achieved the ultimate in my ambition. I was flying to Los Angeles to become a star. Or not? I wondered how many other girls had sat in that very seat before me thinking exactly the same thing. Kate Winslet, Keira Knightley , erm… Martine McCutcheon erm… Kelly Brook. Oh. Right.

Dawn Goes LA LA – part two

How I ended up in LA in the first place…

My 29th birthday was significant in many ways. I have always looked forward to being 30, as I always dreamed that on my 30th birthday my struggle would be over and that I would be able to plateau into a calmer state of mind. I hoped that I would have achieved success, made friends that would be with me for life, and had enough fantastic experiences with the world and the people in it, that I would never be able to look back and say I hadn’t made the most of it.

My first year in LA

Dawn Goes LA LA!

What moving to California was like for me…..

Without trying to kill the dream this story dispels the myths and sheds light on the realities of Hollywood. DAWN GOES LA LA is the tale of my first year living in Los Angeles, with all the culture shock, weirdness and emotion that entailed. It begins at my 29th Birthday party, which was also my leaving do. There I was in London town with all the friends I ever wanted, money, a great job, lovely flat, beautiful cat, and I was just about to move to Los Angeles where I expected life to get even better. The reality of this was that it didn’t!